GOOD FOR YOU, GIRL.

i've been freaking out about post-grad life: the uncertainties, the joblessness, the future, the big question mark that still looms over my career....all really good reasons to freak out about, might i add. it seems like it's only down to days that i, along with many others in my graduating class, will be facing reality.

it hasn't been easy trying to cushion myself for the fall that comes after college. finding a job with my lonely college degree doesn't seem to quite cut it for a lot of companies. this and various other factors (i.e. envy of other peoples' cushions) has brought me in flurry, and no, i'm not talking about the delicious swirly ice cream treat from mcdonald's.

all my focus had been drawn to the worries and the scary things after college, but i didn't even see what i had in front of me. it took a girl that i don't even know that well to simply remind me that i had something to be proud of.

i said i'm graduating as a double major, and she said, "GOOD FOR YOU, GIRL."

and you know what? she's right! good for me. I'M GRADUATING.

And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've got a new job now in the unemployment line
And we don't know how we got into this mess it's a God's test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best

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oh, these times are hard
and i'm making us crazy
don't give up on me baby

questions

today, i tried emailing God because i want answers.

i guess Gmail isn't the way he rolls.

roll wit it

i realized lately that i've become a lot more fearful of many things lately. my inhibitions have almost taken a hold of me. I've found that I'm scared to fall, scared to get hurt, scared to lose things and most importantly... to fail.

things are happening these days, changes are more imminent than ever and finally, I realize that I can't stay tense like this anymore.

no more being afraid.